Hope in Him

A few days ago, I was reading a psalm that placed my entire focus for this journey of mine on Christ and I found it to be so refreshing. It's easy for me to look to people, resources, authors, and rationalizations to help me find resolution - about myself, about the "issue", about life. I will admit though that while I say I'm looking for "resolution", i do have peace in the midst of the journey and I do feel like i'm on solid ground even though i haven't made any firm conclusions about any position. Being on this journey isn't a wavering of my faith, but rather it's a strengthening of it.

"Blessed is he whose help is the God of Jacob, whose hope is in the Lord his God..." Psalm 146:5

After reading the psalm, this verse echoed in my spirit. Everything I "am" relies on hope. Hope in Him. My Savior. The One who did for me what I could never do for myself. Where ever I'm at in my journey, my sexuality, my life - it's about Him and not me. My salvation and my pleasing God in my lifestyle relies on my hope in Him. It's not that I am escaping responsibility for my actions - but I have to remember that no matter what I do, whether pleasing to Him or not, Christ's work on the cross for me will always be what the Father sees when He looks upon me (and smiles). Whatever label I use or is placed on me - gay, straight, ex-gay, gay but celibate, Christ-centered homosexual, seeking, queer, fag, lost - I am acceptable to Him not because of what I or others call myself, but because I am His son and because of His Son.

He is my help, my hope, my Savior. That's the point.

Nathan has got an ex-gay blog called New Love in the Son and he posted on this very thing. While I (or others) may (or may not) agree with Nathan's stance on the issue, I do agree with his encouragement that our hope is in God and we should keep our focus on Him.